Deep in my heart, I knew true freedom would begin with total and complete responsibility for myself and that terrified me. But once I was able to answer three questions, the way was clear and my path straight: 1) What did I want? 2) Do I have supreme authority over my "being" or not? And if so, what are the implications of that? 3) What do I "owe" to those who choose to remain in the slavery system?
What did I want?
I wanted to "BE" who I was. I wanted my "DOing" to match my feelings. I'd been operating my own full-time private practice as a licensed professional counselor for many years, teaching and healing in that context, but the system required I follow protocols that ran counter to my values. I'd stepped as far out of accepted boundaries as I felt I could and still felt out of alignment with my principles. Deep down I wanted to travel around the country encouraging people who wanted to free themselves. I felt freedom of mind and spirit would bring freedom of "BEing". I could think of nothing more fulfilling than this.
Do I have supreme authority over my "being" or not? And if so, what are the implications of that?
This was a BIGGIE. I knew that freeing myself meant simply walking away. There was no way to gracefully unravel the life I'd constructed because the system would always demand more and more. It always had. If I didn't just cut the cord and walk away I would continue to be sucked back in to a never ending cycle of perceived obligation. So, the answer was yes, I DO have supreme authority over my being. And the implications were that I would leave a wake of unhappy slavemasters behind. They would, I felt, continue nipping at my heals until it was clear: I AM the boss of me. And that is exactly how it has been. The nipping has abated. I know who I AM and I AM not controlled by mail, bills, phone calls, advertisements, social pressures, expectations, or false obligations.
What do I owe those who choose to remain in the slavery system?
Nothing. And this was the hardest lesson for me. I am not bound by other peoples' choices. Someone issuing a bill does not automatically constitute an obligation on my part. At the same time, I AM responsible for my contracts. I am responsible to create clear and fair arrangements for getting my requirements met. I found this impossible within the slavery system; but it is the right way to operate in freedom. Since I mostly deal in non-representational value exchanges for survival, I have had to learn the art of verbal contracting. And I owe those I contract with to follow through on my word. I owe NOTHING to our foreclosed corporate government or their emissaries. It is THEY who owe ME...but that's another subject.
So what did I do? I walked away...left my private psychotherapy practice, home, everything. When money ran out I learned to contract for what I needed. And that's it in a "3D" nutshell. In a spiritual context there is MUCH more to this, but I share it discretely as that part does not fit neatly into conventional ways of navigating the world. Perhaps future posts may include some of that...we'll see.
What does this freedom look like? I travel the Southeastern United States visiting people and talking about the restoration of our abandoned towns, cities, buildings, and businesses. I deliver healing energies to hospitals, rehab centers, and nursing homes. I talk to people who are curious about what I'm doing. I share the OPPT UCC filings, the truth about money and banking, and my vision for freedom for the universe. I sleep in my car mostly, but have been blessed with a bed in a guest room for the past week. I have recently begun visiting TOP (The One People) enthusiasts, particularly those who are Way Showers for accessing our value...these have become my soul family connections and make this journey blissful.
I plan to share my experiences a little at a time here. So until next time...